There is a man in my life that treats me like a queen, which I know I more than deserve. This man wakes up in the morning and makes me coffee and breakfast. He packs my lunch for the work day. This man will defend me in public regardless of who is saying what, I know he is on my side. He will surprise me by buying me random items that I’ve needed for awhile and hadn’t found the time to get. He makes me soup when I am sick and stays to make sure the medicine has done its job. He asks if I am ok when I wake up in the middle of the night. He is the kind of father children dream of, loving, caring, guiding. He is charming and can talk the wall into cuddling if he felt the need. He is the perfect host to our guests making them feel like royalty.
There is also a man in my life that becomes unreasonable and irate when he is upset and I know to stay clear of his path so I don’t get whipped with it. This man also will continue to talk about me to himself when he is upset with me, expecting me not to react. This man doesn’t make money on a regular basis and when angry with me will go out until 3 or 5 or whenever the mood hits him spending hard earned money doing who knows what. I know I am better than this man. This man will call me names and insult my womanhood when he feels justified. He will not go get me ice cream if I feel a sudden craving, citing my health as his concern. This man doesn't kiss me or hug me when he sees me but will try to high-five or just say 'what's up.' He has no problem comparing me to other women, both physically and emotionally.
There are so many questions I can’t wait to get answers to when I have reached an older women status. Will she know what I should have done in these situations?
Does wisdom automatically get handed to the gray headed? Will I care as much by then?
I know and I believe marriage is a forever thing. I also know why most people will make their lists to decide if they should get a divorce or not. This list is never been a determining factor if I stay or not. There is where my questions start to come in. If one person is determined to stick it out regardless of the list of pros and cons, what happens when the other person is always miserable but has no motivation to try to be happy or find the positives? Will they survive? At what point is it too much? When will I get the respect I know I deserve? After the 18 years you raise your children it is back to the two of you. Your kids will separate from you and who will be your companion? Do you think at that point you've done your part and it's ok to give up and start fresh?
So many questions for her, I anxiously await this wise woman.
